New adventure at school

I forgot that I had my resume on indeed.com so when I got an email about from Immanuel Lutheran Day school reaching out to me about a teaching job, I was delightfully surprised. I was also grateful to be contacted with a job offer since some days have been extra challenging with Timothy. I still have ideas of what to do with him but fall short on execution. We have been consistent with baby sign language but our outdoor activities have suffered because we were sick and the uncertain Texas weather changes doesn’t help. Our recent play dates have been cancelled so it has been just the two of us. Sometimes I believe he is as annoyed with me as I am with him. Lately, he goes to his room and tells me to close to door or he will say no thank you to everything I suggest. Yes, my baby is almost two! Very vocal and becoming even more independent and wayward. On one hand, I am so excited about his new chapter and growth but on the other hand, it scares me. Am I teaching him enough? Am I exposing him to enough? Am I enough? What am I doing now going on two years at home with him and going on 3 years unemployed? My prayer is for wisdom, love and income earning flexibility. Secretly, I also want to be out of the house for a while. I want Timothy to be taken care of by someone else regularly but within my reach. I can teach at the school and hallelujah he is automatically accepted as a student at 50% off the monthly tuition. Yep. Go ahead and join me in my hallelujah dance. In one week- interview last Tuesday to fingerprint on Thursday- to starting to work and attend school today, Tuesday April 2nd- what a change for the both of us.

No longer a stay at home mom status. And no longer lonesome child in mommy’s sole care. No more waking up anytime and eating anytime and napping anytime or watching tv anytime. That is scary. It is tiring and even sad might I add. I prepared everything. Daddy Deon gave us a prayer and $10. Off we went to another city, 20 minutes drive for our new adventure. We were greeted with warm smiles and oohs and awws over how cute Timothy is. I wore my blue mama bird sweater top and dressed Timothy in blue long sleeve shirt with the grapic words Mom is Awe- Some on the front. The teachers and director love his braids and shirt. He backed away from their initial greeting saying no thank you- yes they were also impressed with his manners. Ms Claudia, the director offered her hand for a high five and Timothy came back smiling. He returned the gesture. A great start. My day began with training. He went off to his Starish class joining other 1 plus year olds and did not even cry for his mama bird. Wow. Just like that my sweetsweet is in school. Among children his age. Someone else has to change his diaper, feed him, teach him, play with him and help him be the best boy he can be. I walked the aisle and prayed. I will pray for the teachers and all child care folks. Parents entrust their children everyday to strangers and leave for work. The teachers are paid a little above minimum wage but doing work that is much more important than the President of a country or Ceo. I would love to see a change to that…well one step at a time. Thank you Lord for today and all the new beginnings.

My mom seemed to breathe a sigh of relief– her oldest and most ambitious hard working daughter ( the most studious school loving child) is doing something with her life again. 😅 Oh I can go on and on about how it is to go from employed to staying at home…how you view yourself and how society labels you and how your spouse treats you…but this entry to to breathe and take in our new adventure with a hopeful and open heart that the best is still yet to come for momeeTamee and sweetsweet.